my cat passed away and i'm devastated... (found in drafts folder)

I found the below in my drafts folder from almost 2 years ago and after reading it i cried for half an hour all over again .  i still miss my cat. 

i had a cat named Livia who was almost 15 years old in a few months and she passed away.  she had  feline thyroid disease and their life expectancy is from 10 to 12 yrs of age. She beat the max by 3 years.  the last year she has been on the decline by alot and fast.  

i need help to work thru my grief because she was such a huge part of my life and family.  i have her littermate/brother Guster still who is doing fantastic health-wise and a younger cat who is almost 4 yrs old named Dusty Bunny who are doing ok and giving lots of cuddles. 

my life feels shattered without Livia in so many ways.  She was always mine... like i was her chosen human out of everyone she'd met. i was her fave and i was honored. she was the MVP in the house who you could rely on. Livia had quirks for sure but who doesn't?  she was also wicked smart. 

for most of her life there was just two, her and her brother being goobers then my partner got a kitten to bring into the house and while it was chaos it was also good to keep our older kitties active. Livia would most often be the peacemaker and offer to cuddle with either of the others. Never out of place when one of the cats came back from the vet office. she